Will it be enough?

When I look at
monetary shortfalls
and Christmas looming
with all those I love
and long to give gifts to,
I cant help but wonder:

Will it be enough?

Will they come away from the tree
feeling loved;
like someone who knew them well
sought to bring them incredible joy?

At the same time
I'm challenged by those words
in my faith.
In the eyes of my Father,
with all that He wanted me
to do,
to say,
to not do,
to not say,
(in my obedience),
will it be enough?

As a little girl
someone's sloppy docterine
decribed (for me) a scale
with all my good
on one side
and all my sin
on the other.

"Will my good be more than my bad?"
is what little girl me, wondered.
With my good deeds
cancled out by my sin,
I just don't know...

Will it be enough?

Truth is,
I've been crafting.
It stretches the budget
but it also expresses
what I want heard abundantly:
It says: I adore you.
I have sacrificed for you,
given of myself for you.

I dont want to just give
"enough"
I want to blow my loved ones away
by my love.

And the truth in faith,
is the same.
Christ puts His life on the good side
of that scale
and makes me
good "enough",
but I dont want to be
good enough!

I want the Father
and Jesus
and the Holy Spirit
to know
how much I adore them!

I want to touch
the heart of God,
with my love.

He sits with the broken,
the lonely,
those sick,
and imprisoned,
those in need
(who cant repay).

He lives in a high and holy place
and with those who are broken and contrite,
reviving the spirit of the lowly,
reviving the heart
of those who have been crushed.

So,
as we seek to give
to those whom we love
let us also seek
to lavish our love
on the heart of God,
by loving those in our lives
whom He adores.

For we are God's handiwork
created in Christ Jesus
to do good works,
which God prepared
in advance for us to do.

What benifit is it to you
if you lend to those who can repay you?
Even sinners lend to sinners, 
expecting to be repaid in full.  
But love your enemies, 
do good to them...
Your Father, 
who sees what is done in secret, 
will reward you.

Will it be enough?
No, never...
or yes, always,
but let it be abundantly
more than He would ask
or imagine,
as we give of ourselves
for others.

c Kim Damon 2013